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bday time May 5, 2015

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I had a quiet unceremonious big 3.0 bday compared to all the guys known to me who were welcomed on to other side. In fact i can publish for the fact that this is the world’s best kept secret. The moment passed unnoticed. I felt the need to blog after a long time. May be because I took the time to step back and notice what is changed and what is going on.. Everything seems to be in a hurry. No Time for anything. No Time for anyone. It is turning out to be a battle to get to next appointment on time, to complete next task on time, to take care of unplanned things on time. Lose this moment pay for it later. Lose this opportunity regret it later. Series of things I started noticing from last evening. Met Ashley on my birthday evening for monday night mini. Given the location in downtown, factoring all the peak traffic, i did chart for a 45 minutes. But, it took me more than hour. The fuel warning went off and had to make a pit stop to refuel. Had a deep intense conversation on the “what if” questions 17 months ago. Found some good foundation to start my journey for second time. Spent time with S had dinner at s bhavan and got home late. Slept late and woke up late. The struggle starts. The struggle to cook, arrange S bag, complete kriya, leave on time is intense. Don’t want to compromise anywhere on the standard. Reached late. Pleasant surprise to find some decorations on desk. Embarrassing at same time. Even though I knew Tuel presentation is going to be excellent had to miss all of it except last 10 minutes. Add to this the need to connect and oblige with Sis in law, take care of work mail etc. If only i had extra 30 minutes or may be an hour by waking up early. Today was the first time in past few days when i was really mad at bachi for not coming and helping me in kitchen or with anything. I cannot blame him now as I did not set the expectation that he needs to help and also he has a call he needs to attend just like every tuesday. But, how much can i blame myself and beat myself up for not being that perfect employee, perfect mother, perfect wife, perfect sister in law all at the same time? Few things that stood out and made me burst with laughter

Returning home after meeting Ashley, S was jumping with joy as usual with Blnc. Blnc is so funny saying this baby eat too much. this baby is hypppiir. In fact she eats all the food. But, I am so blessed to have some one take care of S when i need some alone time occasionally from breaking down.

The way S cling on to me with the lawn mower in front of daycare. LOL.

meeting gogle biggies February 24, 2014

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I met with Str*t*s – prod manager wth ggle- its truly inspring when you meet such passionate ppl. something motivating to work towards – to achieve something big. always on the go to sell stuff.
what is that you like about thep roduct, what you do not like – 2 reasons
1 software is meesy
2 migrate to google cloud
numerous advantages – talk in terms of quantification and classification
negotiate and understand – i am wih you to help you
why not? because i dont know – that is a fair answer!
I am a data guy – love analytics – playing with data and reporting like you

coping with CHANGE April 25, 2013

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This is normal. You can expect to have feelings such as frustration, a sense of powerlessness, and anxiety. This is not unusual. You can also expect that, over time, you will gain a better understanding of your path forward and move past these emotions as you begin to appreciate, embrace, and integrate change.

Change as we know, is an inevitable part of life. Impermanence is a given. Managing change effectively means not fearing or resisting change and challenges, but instead empowering oneself with the necessary skills to navigate through uncertainty. Preparing oneself for inevitable change and understanding the normal range of responses to stress, can help you to feel more confident and leads to sustained /increased organizational performance. Below is a list of normal reactions to change, and some strategies that lead to resilience.

Normal Reactions to Uncertainty

• Shock, numbness, and withdrawal • Fear, and insecurity
• Frustration, resentment, and anger • Sadness, depression, and guilt
• Unfairness, betrayal, and distrust • Relief, and optimism, excitement • Lack of interest in activities • Preoccupied, unable to focus • Sarcasm, cynicism

Strategies for Resilience

• Simply acknowledge your current situation, and be aware that normal reactions to uncertainty are to be expected.
• Take charge and plan in advance how you will respond to change. Prioritize steps that will aid in minimizing your anxiety and stress levels.
• When change occurs, both positive and negative feelings will often emerge, often at the same time. It’s important to talk and confide in a few people you trust about current changes and pressures associated with the transition. Don’t isolate yourself with your concerns. Seek out individuals who have a sense of hope and who can help you strategize.
• Seek out lines of communication. Clear communication and information in times of uncertainty can aid in minimizing stress and anxiety levels. Understand that acknowledging ambiguity and what you don’t know is equally important.
• Develop adaptable coping skills. Examples include exercise even if it’s for thirty minutes a day. Maintaining a schedule such as waking up the same time every morning, or going to bed at a predictable time. Calm the mind through the practice of yoga, or meditation. Bringing awareness to your present moment can have calming effects.
• Think back to challenging times in your life and draw upon how you coped successfully.
• Develop positive emotions that include gratitude, happiness, compassion towards self and others. Positive emotions increase optimism and resilience.
• Laughter and humor are important tools in times of stress. Laughter can break up seriousness in a conversation and trigger the release of endorphins which helps relieve tension and reduce stress.
• Be proactive. Each individual has the capacity to cope and deal with situations effectively. If you find yourself having a difficult time managing stress that is affecting your well-being, please contact Special Assistance Program. (who is that?)

Remember – Successfully managing through uncertainty, increases resilience, self-confidence, motivation and productivity.